EPIPHANY Part Six
I'll have a side of effects, light on the onion
My sudden revelation was that I was surrounded by a team of health professionals, specialists and scientists, all personally dedicated to my treatment, I was no longer a number, I was a name. Each was familiar with my case. They all used my ‘real’ name when addressing me. Someone was responsible for making a note of it and making sure everyone who came contact with me called me by my given name. No questions
asked. Everyone - everyone loves hearing their own name. Especially when they’re being attended to by caregivers. It just makes you feel good. Really good.
”I was emotionally and physically exhausted from the stressful fear I had about my condition.”
There’s a lot to be encouraged about as Mandee and I continued with my appointments that first day. We moved onto my fifth consultation, my Naturopath. He complimented the nutritionist’s recommendations with additional dietary changes and supplements. The hormonal drugs I had begun taking were going to wreak havoc on my entire system. He was committed to minimizing them as much as possible. In our session we went over all of the known side effects from clinical trials. It was a bit overwhelming. It was also clear this was going to be a very challenging ride.
I was a little concerned about how the side effects were going to hit me. I’ve always been grateful for how well I’ve taken care of myself. In my twentiesI studied Tae Kwon Do. I was going for my Black Belt. I got as far as high red. I only had one more step to go to bring home the black, but then life got in the way. I’m crazy about biking. I used to love going for a strenuous ten mile bike ride. I would get into my half hour workout regimen after. Three sets of 35 pushups. Three sets of lunges. Three sets of high-step trotting. Closing it out with about five minutes of curls.
Then I got pretty busy and was getting anxious about taking an hour and a half out of my day to cycle and work out. I chilled for a couple of weeks and cut my whole routine
back to forty-five minutes. It took the same tress away, and I still felt great. There’s an exhilaration I never want to lose. Everything is so vibrant. I love being alive. Spinning by the fields and trees in the early morning sunlight made me just wanna soak it all in.
Everyone we’ve met here insisted I keep my life style, workouts and all. The biggest challenge will be keeping ahead of the fatigue. That was great to hear. I just don’t want to lose my vitality and vigor. I would have to say I fear its second only to passing on. I’m no longer in the present because I worry about how I keep my dignity. I’m blessed I have this amazing energy. I can’t bear to slowly fade away. Hmmmm. I hadn’t taken a breath with Jesus in a couple of hours. That’s how quickly the darkness creeps in.
I had always thought cancer was a painful disease. It appears the treatment is worse in so many ways. I have heard nothing to the contrary, At least not yet. I was emotionally and physically exhausted from the stressful fear I had about my condition. My emotions were beginning to subside. My naturopath’s assessments of my physical condition made me feel he was confident how I will respond to his treatments. He insisted I eat berries and pineapple in my oatmeal. Salmon at least three times a week. Raw nuts, soy beans, sardines, mackerel, anchovies, and squeeze in a little chicken here and there. Turmeric, ginger, cinnamon, lemon and honey cocktails on the side. It’s all what I’m into! I’m lovin’ it!
I’m just worried about what’s around the corner. I should refuse the side of effects. And definitely hold the onions…
It just doesn’t look like I can.
Breathe Jesus in. BLOW satan out. It sneaks up on ya like a panic attack!
Note ~
Hey all ~ my deepest apologies to you. This was supposed to go out yesterday but I got a whole new onslaught of side effects that caught me by surprise and kinda did me in. Extremely high blood pressure, edema, major headaches and severe roaming pain. I didn’t know what the heck was going on. I was feeling like I barely made it to the Doctor’s office before dying. Anxiety over the moon. The good news it was just a matter of a med adjustment. Woke up this morning with BP and everything under control. There’s nothing like getting that reassuring pat on the back from your PCP.
You can look forward to my next installment of EPIPHANY Part Seven coming out this coming Monday, November 25, 2024.
I love ya all. Thanks for being here.